“Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darknesses of other people.” “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” … “One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” -C.G. Jung “When I cannot… Read More If I could open up my heart and take you on a tour in there, I would
I step up to the altar where Don Carlos hands me the cup. The aroma finds my nostrils and I feel my throat muscles contract in protest. I give pause for five seconds, trying to convey reverence to the four maestros sitting behind the altar. The altar is adorned with jaguar skulls, 20… Read More My 2nd Ayahuasca Ceremony-“White-knuckle cosmic sleigh ride”/Hitting the Wall
How to summarize the ayahuasca experience? If I was Shakespeare I couldn’t come close, but here are my meager 10 attempts. 1. It was as if Mother Ayahuasca (you will hear this commonly when working “the medicine”, if you call it “a drug” around me, I will correct you, just FYI). Our incessant need in… Read More 10 METAPHORS FOR THE AYAHUASCA EXPERIENCE
I have been hesitant to publish any writing since I arrived back home from Peru 12 days ago. To be honest, I have been fragile, like a pregnant hormonal mother, fluctuating from despondent sadness to being overcome with gratitude and love. I have cried more and given more hugs in those 2 weeks in Peru, than I… Read More My Ayahuasca experience: Earth-Shattering
I’m feeling a nice little kick from the extended-release Niacin vitamins I took one an hour ago. I take my highs where I can get them. It was suggested to me that the mosquitoes in the Amazon will be repelled by this in my blood. They tend to like sweet, sugary blood. I have began… Read More My Ayahuasca/Huachuma retreat in Peru: Pre-Trip Introduction and rant
What if our waking consciousness is a vastly more nuanced entity, with a depth and variety of function, way beyond what our simple minds can comprehend? We are relatively young, a blip in 100,000’s of years of human evolution that will continue until our planet explodes. Our bodies age on a linear scale of deterioration, but… Read More On the benefits of Magic Mushrooms (Psilocybin)
“The depressed person avoids the possibility of independence and more life precisely because there are what threaten him with destruction and death. He holds on to the people who have enslaved him in a network of crushing obligations, belittling interaction, precisely because these people are his shelter, his strength, his protection against the world. Like… Read More The Denial of Death
The Sober Hombre 