I was leaned over, my right hand on her hip, I could feel the softness, and suppleness of her skin, our torsos were touching, my head resting against her neck, and I felt the comfort of being with her, having her in my arms. I could feel the way my heart was when I am… Read More The ideal mate you are seeking, already exists inside you
I have this idea fishing that I do each night when I go to sleep and I seem to have a huge catch of fish (ideas) but somehow when the net comes up ( I wake up) , most of the fish slip through the net. How many of us are in foxhole partnerships? We… Read More Got a mind full of questions and a teacher in my soul
Meditation alters my brain chemistry, it leaves me feeling lighter, less judgmental, more forgiving and less quick to react angrily. It alters my mindset to a more calm, compassionate, and peaceful state. I see it is as weightlifting or cardio for the mind. Each time I recognize my mind has wandered and I return to… Read More How meditation helps my depression
I walk into the bar with three friends. The group of young 19 or 20 looking girls turn their heads slightly. I size up each of their mate values. I infer the amount of time they spent in the mirror before arriving. I position myself in close proximity to the attractive girls’ group while… Read More I am the star of my mind movie- 10 pm to 4 am on a Friday night
I pay a tax, for my equilibrium or, my peace of mind. I work out in the morning and then, on some days, I write three pages of stream of consciousness journaling -“morning pages”, detailed in the book The Artist’s Way. I write exactly what comes to mind: whining, bitching, anger, shame, angst, that puzzled look a… Read More A Happy Tax: Peace of mind has a price
I step up to the altar where Don Carlos hands me the cup. The aroma finds my nostrils and I feel my throat muscles contract in protest. I give pause for five seconds, trying to convey reverence to the four maestros sitting behind the altar. The altar is adorned with jaguar skulls, 20… Read More My 2nd Ayahuasca Ceremony-“White-knuckle cosmic sleigh ride”/Hitting the Wall
How to summarize the ayahuasca experience? If I was Shakespeare I couldn’t come close, but here are my meager 10 attempts. 1. It was as if Mother Ayahuasca (you will hear this commonly when working “the medicine”, if you call it “a drug” around me, I will correct you, just FYI). Our incessant need in… Read More 10 METAPHORS FOR THE AYAHUASCA EXPERIENCE
The Sober Hombre 